PATIENCE!
All this time I have been frustrated with how uneventful this year has been so far for me, more especially this summer. I feel like all I have ever been doing is day dreaming and waiting around for something amazing to happen to me, but I found that I have only met the bitter disappointment of reality that everything I have planned out has fallen apart and collapsed, shaking the ground beneath my feet.
I started becoming really scared. Scared that this was going to be my story. Dreaming and planning and hoping for things that end up going completely awry and fate finding it’s way to keep me from achieving anything I ever wanted.
I guess I started getting a little depressed because of this too. I am not exaggerating when I say literally EVERYTHING from plan A-Z has fallen completely apart!!
My vacation trip back home to Japan, my trip back to the Philippines to attend my favorite Aunt’s wedding, our plan C trip to New York even!!, road trips, beach parties, amusement parks, haunted historical site seeing, freaking Hokkaaido Sushi AKA THE RESTURANT WITH THE BEST CHICKEN KATSU
IN THE WORLDDD!!!
DIDN’T DO ANY OF THAT SHIT NOPE!!!
BUT THEN I STARTED THINKING
I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason.
Like maybe Anna wasn’t offered that job because an even better and more suited career was waiting for her—
or maybe Henry and Clara didn’t work out because Henry was destined to be with Julia instead???
I don’t know why I’m using these random names like I’m really bad at explaining things BUT YOU GET IT RIGHT??
What I’m trying to say is that maybe the reason why this summer has been the MOST uneventful summer break of my entire life—the reason why all I ever did these past 2 months is bum around at home being bored and lazy as hell with my family—is all because well, college is starting for me in 2 weeks! My very first year into this new chapter in my life. I have a feeling that once college starts, I will constantly be busy–be constantly on the go–juggling studies with financial responsibilities, and God knows what opportunities being thrown at me while in school! I will definitely start working again soon after school starts and I will be surrounded by my career goals; like networking and gaining more experience and important contacts; and just I know this is a mouthful but I really have a strong feeling that things are really going to start happening for me! My whole life will just start unfolding before me and there will be no where to go for me but forward and basically I feel like God has given me this whole summer of freedom and doing absolutely nothing but lounging with family because this may be the last time ever that I will have down time like this and he’s just trying to get me to appreciate and savor all the moments of this family time and having not a worry in the world because he knows that life will start getting so much more fast-paced and extraordinary for me and I may be away from family for a long time one day and just yeah!!!
I am rambling!!!
But I hope this makes sense…somewhat ;^; !!
I am like…like potential energy! Simply building up the momentum for the life that is ahead of me—–as in pretty much 2 weeks {August 26 to be more exact}.
The moral of the story this week is patience. It’s finding meaning in every obstacle that is tossed at me. It is learning to deal with the hand I’ve been dealt and making sense out of it.
Because God has plans for every single one of us!!