Women are sneaky.
I know I vouch a lot for the injustice of women. I still consider myself an advocate for women’s rights but…in all truth, women are so goddamn sneaky.
There is motive to everything we do–every way we act or portray ourselves is preemptive.
Even as some of us chose to portray ourselves as a weaker, sometimes even less favorable character–it is all planned. For whatever reason we concocted to say and do the things we do, we just do it. For ourselves ultimately.
Sure reasons may be to make a slight towards an enemy, or in most cases we just do it out of this twisted competition we create with other females whom we feel threatened by, or maybe we even do it for male attention.
Either way it’s all potato potáto to me.
We are still ultimately doing it for our own best interest.
Trust me, if women wanted to gain some sort of power, we could as well done it.
But we’re sneaky, remember. We are selfish, jealous, competitive, hostile, self absorbed, and self loathing all at the same time.
We constantly feel threatened by other women, we find underhanded ways to set them beneath us–even if they are friends–no wait…ESPECIALLY if they are our friends.
Women fall because we destroy each other. We’ll be the first to call another woman a whore. We’ll be the first to bully another woman’s esteem. Men think they deal the cards, but that’s only because women let them.
I see it every day. Online more commonly. Especially within social media. And with every passing day I’ve grown to hate it more and more. It disgusts me how much of a snake women can be. And it’s all done in the same kind of method–backhanded compliments, phony cheerful social interactions, purposely insulting themselves to win others sympathy and praise, underhandedly complimenting ourselves and shaming others in the mix.
Typical female game.
I hate it so much.
And I wonder to myself “am I any better?”
“Could I be just like every one else?”
I fight so hard to be different–
to do things differently.
Try not to act on jealousy, try not to compare myself, try not to make these slights towards other women I know, try not to promote myself and downgrade my friends in the process…
But I can’t lie to myself any longer. And in a way I always knew this about myself anyhow. I am no different…I’m not any better. I have made considerable efforts to control these disgusting mentalities and shut out negative thoughts. Without fail, however, they always creep back in.
I am a woman after all right…?…
I’d like to think that acknowledging all this at least sets me a part somehow.
But then again I shouldn’t care if it does. That would sort of take away from the whole point I’m trying to make here.
princessjanny 